Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us. - Romans 5
Sunday, April 17, 2016
To brothers: How do I protect the hearts of my sisters while I watch and
keep my heart from doing harm? Though we can have fellowship with our
sisters (and I encourage it), we are called directly by God to encourage
and strengthen the hearts of our brothers. So why ask out a girl (whom
you may or may not like and have not-so-selfless intentions) when you
can go and be accountable and sharpen a brother? Guard hearts. Empower
one another, brothers.
Saturday, April 16, 2016
Devo Post #14
4/16/16
Malachi 3:18
And you will again see the distinction between the righteous and the wicked, between those who serve God and those who do not.
There is a distinction to be seen visibly. This is something we need to know, and others need to know. Our light should not be hidden, and it should grow as we grow spiritually. We also need to understand that everyone not in the body is wicked, and that we all started off as wicked. We need to know our sin makes us wicked. Doesn’t matter if we think others are good, the Gospel tells us we are not. In Romans 5, it says we “while we are helpless,” “while we are sinners,”, and “while we are WICKED,” Paul is equating all 3 as our nature. Again, you can say non-believers are “good,” but that is just by human standards. We are all NOT good according to God’s standards, and we need to hit this home into our hearts. As Pastor Mike says, only when we admit our blindness (our sin, our hopelessness, our wickedness, our humanity) can we have hope to see.
Sunday, April 3, 2016
Thursday, March 31, 2016
http://babylonbee.com/news/mans-impressive-book-collection-entirely-ornamental/
Story of my life right now. Will read more, and live it out more. Also to start my book review blog.
Story of my life right now. Will read more, and live it out more. Also to start my book review blog.
Saturday, March 26, 2016
I believe, to a certain good extent, that you can interpret the kind of heart someone has by looking at their Facebook profile pictures and see whether they have pictures of them with friends and family (or pets), or have glamour or setup shots of themselves. Hearts of caring and no need of self-validation from others, or hearts of vanity or insecurity, can be revealed. Go see for yourself on Facebook, and you can also examine your own pictures and own heart and see if there is a correlation.
Candid shots of joy and laughter are also wonderful to see.
(And honestly, deep down, we all kind of already knew this...without social psychology to point it out for us, we just pretend we don't know because we all do it)
Candid shots of joy and laughter are also wonderful to see.
(And honestly, deep down, we all kind of already knew this...without social psychology to point it out for us, we just pretend we don't know because we all do it)
Friday, March 25, 2016
Thursday, March 24, 2016
Wednesday, March 23, 2016
Devo Post #13
3/23/16
1 Peter 3:3-4
Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. 4 Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.
I know this is addressed to Godly women, but there is enough scripture and evidence in other parts of the Bible that I believe this can be extrapolated to all modern Christians. Gentleness and a quiet spirit in both men and women of God is something pleasing to God.
Our outer appearances should not matter. That is that. Anyone who says differently either isn’t a Christian or is a Christian with his/her head stuck in the butthole of the world. I don’t need to elaborate any more than that.
How about myself? I tend to not care how I dress, usually adorning a T-shirt, jeans, and my ugly but comfy Nike Monarchs. But I know deep down I do judge people by appearances, and am still subjected to treating people better if they look or sound more attractive. I know when I was young I was under that influence, given who I crushed on in elementary school. As I grew older and became friends with more and more outcasts within the American public education, I learned to care more and take more things into consideration of a person’s behavior and inherent worth. I became someone who could see past a lot of surface traits of people and look deeper into who they truly are. Even at WashU, with its plethora of well-dressed and rich students, I was able to maintain this ability of mine to not be subjected by physical appearances and truly care for those who need my care, and be friends with those who have character, not charisma and looks. I even took this as far as treating people who look attractive poorly and giving them less chances to befriend me. I immediately judged people who looked good or dressed well as arrogant and self-absorbed, as this was the case at first when I met Kelvin at CMU. I basically told myself “look at all those ACF girls fawning over him, he doesn’t need my friendship.” God showed me I was dead wrong, and look at us two now.
I have noticed changes in myself since I went to CMU, and even now in Chicago, that I am now more prone to stare and prettier women and pander to attractive people, at least to a much larger degree than in the past. I mean, any increase is already a lot compared to how I was in the past, especially towards females. Before, I cared not about looks, and my KC friends all know I used to never notice boobs or butts. Now though I find myself actually perceiving they exist, and in the slightest ways I am feeling some physical attraction towards them than I ever had. One may say puberty hit me a decade and a half late. I may now be closer to a normal boy or man than I used to be, but I cannot help but feel ashamed, especially towards my sisters in Christ. I never used to lust in manners that my brothers in Christ struggle so hard, but now I think I am struggling more and more with this. Oh how I stalk more pictures on Facebook now than I ever used to. Need to call out myself and repent. My sisters in Christ deserve much better from me.
I need to learn, or re-learn, that a man’s/woman’s worth is not found in how attractive they are, how much they earn, how prestigious they are in their field, how they dress or carry themselves, but in their character, humility, and love of God. That is how Jesus treated those who came to Him, whether it was repentant beggars or tax collectors, or even repentant pharisees. But those who use their outer appearances and outer behavior, Jesus calls out their true nature on the inside, “bones and filth” and “greed and self-indulgence.”
I must not be self-focused. I also must not enable my brothers and sisters to be the self-focused either. I will never date or marry someone who focuses on the outside, whether towards me or in general, but I will look for someone who is humble, has character, and is a woman after God’s own heart.
Saturday, March 12, 2016
Luna had decorated her bedroom ceiling with five beautifully
painted faces: Harry, Ron, Hermione, Ginny, and Neville. They
were not moving as the portraits at Hogwarts moved, but there
was a certain magic about them all the same: Harry thought they
breathed. What appeared to be fine golden chains wove around the
pictures, linking them together, but after examining them for a
minute or so, Harry realized that the chains were actually one word,
repeated a thousand times in golden ink: friends . . . friends . . .
friends . . .
painted faces: Harry, Ron, Hermione, Ginny, and Neville. They
were not moving as the portraits at Hogwarts moved, but there
was a certain magic about them all the same: Harry thought they
breathed. What appeared to be fine golden chains wove around the
pictures, linking them together, but after examining them for a
minute or so, Harry realized that the chains were actually one word,
repeated a thousand times in golden ink: friends . . . friends . . .
friends . . .
- Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows
As much as I dislike Trump and want to support the protests right at UIC against the rally, I know that one day the same protests against free speech will be used against Christianity. The same thinking that Trump supporters are outdated, racist, and ignorant will one day be used against Christianity. The day is probably already upon is when free speech and religious freedom can no longer protect Christians from worshiping God and doing His will in peace. God may we be able to persevere through persecution that He promised the Church.
Sunday, March 6, 2016
Me: I have always wondered, and continue to wonder, if growing up and being
an adult and living a more personal life after college, to try to move
past the tightness that we define as "college behavior," if we are
actually becoming more unbiblical.
J.M: mmm as for people trying to move past the community feel during college to live a more personal life, I actually find that quite tragic to some degree
Me: it is
Me: and i dont like it how people try to cover it up
Me: "its in the past now"
Me: "im an adult now"
Me: "this is just how life works"
J.M: not even sure what that's supposed to mean
Me: it reeks of laziness
J.M: selfish passivity
J.M: mmm as for people trying to move past the community feel during college to live a more personal life, I actually find that quite tragic to some degree
Me: it is
Me: and i dont like it how people try to cover it up
Me: "its in the past now"
Me: "im an adult now"
Me: "this is just how life works"
J.M: not even sure what that's supposed to mean
Me: it reeks of laziness
J.M: selfish passivity
Tuesday, March 1, 2016
Membership
It is almost March now, and membership classes are starting soon. Within the last few months, various prominent preachers have emphasized the importance of being a member of a local church, and that it is basically heresy to “ride solo”. I wouldn’t call my behavior in Chicago that, given I’ve been very active in two churches (Beloved and Cornerstone), but I have yet to give my allegiance to either. The church I go to for service (on Saturday afternoons) is Beloved, but I have to wonder if this is the church for me, especially after last Saturday. Do I enjoy spending my time with these brothers and sisters listening to them talk about Fuller House and Suits? Or watch them agonize whether Steph Curry will clutch it out in overtime? I don’t, and without a doubt I can give a full theological analysis on how terrible is this behavior when the church body comes together. But this begets the question, if I go to a church where they have LAN parties or FOF (fellowship over food) for afterhours, is this just catering to my own tastes as a gamer and social foodie? This is about the time I reminisce the prayer and worship times after church back at Pittsburgh, and the extensive spiritual refinement Vision School gave during those semesters. Is it too terrible to mention that we ought to pray more together, share more together, encourage each other more, and be holy together after church? Sigh, maybe I just sat at the wrong table. Maybe God is telling me to stay and encourage them and point them to the Cross. It is not about me, it is all about Jesus.
Sunday, February 28, 2016
Sthuthi Chey Maname Lyrics
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(I'm gonna put this here until I figure out how to translate it, or someone does. Post in my comments to tell me.)
Wednesday, February 24, 2016
I was the only one,
Looking at you:
Seeing your past and future…
Your sadness and happiness…
Everything.
Looking at you:
Seeing your past and future…
Your sadness and happiness…
Everything.
I’d always believed that growing up,
Meant becoming kinder,
But I’m no different than I was as a child…
Meant becoming kinder,
But I’m no different than I was as a child…
I feel I want to protect you,
Even if I awake from the darkness,
On that other side awaiting me.
In this city that hid the two of us away,
A type of snow that’s never been seen before has been falling.
You’re like the deepest scar,
That’s ever been carved in my heart.
I’ll retrieve this world’s song,
That once made you smile.
Even if I awake from the darkness,
On that other side awaiting me.
In this city that hid the two of us away,
A type of snow that’s never been seen before has been falling.
You’re like the deepest scar,
That’s ever been carved in my heart.
I’ll retrieve this world’s song,
That once made you smile.
The clocks in every room,
Are just a little bit off,
While we constantly remain as cogs,
Misaligning our words.
Are just a little bit off,
While we constantly remain as cogs,
Misaligning our words.
Playing hero,
As I cried all alone,
I brushed your cheeks,
With hands that faltered before even reaching out.
As I cried all alone,
I brushed your cheeks,
With hands that faltered before even reaching out.
A world that wants to destroy you,
Is impregnated by a black prayer,
At the threshold of dreams.
Those gentle fingers that were caressing you lovingly,
Begin to twist and curl!
For my sake, and my sake alone,
I’m reaching out this powerless hand,
Toward a faint, shining light –
Struggling…
So lead me to a future,
In which you sing!
Is impregnated by a black prayer,
At the threshold of dreams.
Those gentle fingers that were caressing you lovingly,
Begin to twist and curl!
For my sake, and my sake alone,
I’m reaching out this powerless hand,
Toward a faint, shining light –
Struggling…
So lead me to a future,
In which you sing!
I’m believing in the existence,
Of an undeniably warm place,
That I’ll want to protect.
That kindness, devoured by sadness,
Is a night buried under white snow.
You light a tiny fire in my heart,
Like an old scar.
So smile for me –
Your song,
Is like a light awakening,
From the darkness of this world.
Of an undeniably warm place,
That I’ll want to protect.
That kindness, devoured by sadness,
Is a night buried under white snow.
You light a tiny fire in my heart,
Like an old scar.
So smile for me –
Your song,
Is like a light awakening,
From the darkness of this world.
I was the only one,
Looking at you……
Looking at you……
Saturday, February 20, 2016
One of the questions I had during International Bible Study was about Jesus calming the storm. In that story, Jesus asks a question to the disciples about their lack of faith. My question was this: which was more faith, to ask Jesus for help or to not ask at all, believing that Jesus will protect them no matter what.
I don't know if there is a correct answer for that question, but I think one must take a course of action in accordance to their measure of faith.
Again deep questions coming from a basic bible study.
I don't know if there is a correct answer for that question, but I think one must take a course of action in accordance to their measure of faith.
Again deep questions coming from a basic bible study.
The Chaos (by G. Nolst Trenité, a.k.a. "Charivarius"; 1870 - 1946)
Dearest creature in creationStudying English pronunciation,
I will teach you in my verse
Sounds like corpse, corps, horse and worse
I will keep you, Susy, busy,
Make your head with heat grow dizzy.
Tear in eye your dress you'll tear,
So shall I! Oh, hear my prayer,
Pray, console your loving poet,
Make my coat look new, dear, sew it!
Just compare heart, beard and heard,
Dies and diet, lord and word,
Sword and sward, retain and Britain.
(Mind the latter, how it's written).
Made has not the sound of bade,
Say said, pay-paid, laid, but plaid.
Now I surely will not plague you
With such words as vague and ague,
But be careful how you speak,
Say break, steak, but bleak and streak.
Previous, precious, fuchsia, via,
Pipe, snipe, recipe and choir,
Cloven, oven, how and low,
Script, receipt, shoe, poem, toe.
Hear me say, devoid of trickery:
Daughter, laughter and Terpsichore,
Typhoid, measles, topsails, aisles.
Exiles, similes, reviles.
Wholly, holly, signal, signing.
Thames, examining, combining
Scholar, vicar, and cigar,
Solar, mica, war, and far.
From "desire": desirable--admirable from "admire."
Lumber, plumber, bier, but brier.
Chatham, brougham, renown, but known.
Knowledge, done, but gone and tone,
One, anemone. Balmoral.
Kitchen, lichen, laundry, laurel,
Gertrude, German, wind, and mind.
Scene, Melpomene, mankind,
Tortoise, turquoise, chamois-leather,
Reading, reading, heathen, heather.
This phonetic labyrinth
Gives moss, gross, brook, brooch, ninth, plinth.
Billet does not end like ballet;
Bouquet, wallet, mallet, chalet;
Blood and flood are not like food,
Nor is mould like should and would.
Banquet is not nearly parquet,
Which is said to rime with "darky."
Viscous, Viscount, load, and broad.
Toward, to forward, to reward.
And your pronunciation's O.K.,
When you say correctly: croquet.
Rounded, wounded, grieve, and sieve,
Friend and fiend, alive, and live,
Liberty, library, heave, and heaven,
Rachel, ache, moustache, eleven,
We say hallowed, but allowed,
People, leopard, towed, but vowed.
Mark the difference, moreover,
Between mover, plover, Dover,
Leeches, breeches, wise, precise,
Chalice, but police, and lice.
Camel, constable, unstable,
Principle, disciple, label,
Petal, penal, and canal,
Wait, surmise, plait, promise, pal.
Suit, suite, ruin, circuit, conduit,
Rime with "shirk it" and "beyond it."
But it is not hard to tell,
Why it's pall, mall, but Pall Mall.
Muscle, muscular, gaol, iron,
Timber, climber, bullion, lion,
Worm and storm, chaise, chaos, and chair,
Senator, spectator, mayor,
Ivy, privy, famous, clamour
And enamour rime with hammer.
Pussy, hussy, and possess,
Desert, but dessert, address.
Golf, wolf, countenance, lieutenants.
Hoist, in lieu of flags, left pennants.
River, rival, tomb, bomb, comb,
Doll and roll and some and home.
Stranger does not rime with anger.
Neither does devour with clangour.
Soul, but foul and gaunt but aunt.
Font, front, won't, want, grand, and grant.
Shoes, goes, does. Now first say: finger.
And then: singer, ginger, linger,
Real, zeal, mauve, gauze, and gauge,
Marriage, foliage, mirage, age.
Query does not rime with very,
Nor does fury sound like bury.
Dost, lost, post; and doth, cloth, loth;
Job, Job; blossom, bosom, oath.
Though the difference seems little,
We say actual, but victual.
Seat, sweat; chaste, caste.; Leigh, eight, height;
Put, nut; granite, and unite.
Reefer does not rime with deafer,
Feoffer does, and zephyr, heifer.
Dull, bull, Geoffrey, George, ate, late,
Hint, pint, Senate, but sedate.
Scenic, Arabic, Pacific,
Science, conscience, scientific,
Tour, but our and succour, four,
Gas, alas, and Arkansas.
Sea, idea, guinea, area,
Psalm, Maria, but malaria,
Youth, south, southern, cleanse and clean,
Doctrine, turpentine, marine.
Compare alien with Italian,
Dandelion with battalion.
Sally with ally, yea, ye,
Eye, I, ay, aye, whey, key, quay.
Say aver, but ever, fever.
Neither, leisure, skein, receiver.
Never guess--it is not safe:
We say calves, valves, half, but Ralph.
Heron, granary, canary,
Crevice and device, and eyrie,
Face but preface, but efface,
Phlegm, phlegmatic, ass, glass, bass.
Large, but target, gin, give, verging,
Ought, out, joust, and scour, but scourging,
Ear but earn, and wear and bear
Do not rime with here, but ere.
Seven is right, but so is even,
Hyphen, roughen, nephew, Stephen,
Monkey, donkey, clerk, and jerk,
Asp, grasp, wasp, and cork and work.
Pronunciation--think of psyche--!
Is a paling, stout and spikey,
Won't it make you lose your wits,
Writing "groats" and saying "grits"?
It's a dark abyss or tunnel,
Strewn with stones, like rowlock, gunwale,
Islington and Isle of Wight,
Housewife, verdict, and indict!
Don't you think so, reader, rather,
Saying lather, bather, father?
Finally: which rimes with "enough"
Though, through, plough, cough, hough, or tough?
Hiccough has the sound of "cup."
My advice is--give it up
I was reminded of this because the international students at International Bible Study all pronounce disciple as if it was pronounced like principle. Makes sense right? English...
Learning How to Write #1
“This sentence has five words. Here are five more words. Five-word sentences are fine. But several together become monotonous. Listen to what is happening. The writing is getting boring. The sound of it drones. It’s like a stuck record. The ear demands some variety. Now listen. I vary the sentence length, and I create music. Music. The writing sings. It has a pleasant rhythm, a lilt, a harmony. I use short sentences. And I use sentences of medium length. And sometimes, when I am certain the reader is rested, I will engage him with a sentence of considerable length, a sentence that burns with energy and builds with all the impetus of a crescendo, the roll of the drums, the crash of the cymbals–sounds that say listen to this, it is important.” - Gary Provost
Charlie
I have decided today to name my hamster, who passed away 12-14 years ago without a name, Charlie, in honor of "Charlie bit my finger."
Friday, February 19, 2016
Friends before Dating
The best thing is make friends first. Your really good friends of the
same sex were discovered and not found (brought to you by C.S. Lewis).
In other words, you didn't have to force it and there was a reasonable
pace on your journey to being friends. With romance we tend to go so
fast that we skip a billion important steps of growth and that's when
damage happens. When you find that guy-friend who doesn't fake it, isn't
trying to impress you, and is helping you walk with God instead of
helping you drown —just like a real friend does —then consider a cup of
coffee. Don't rush, do have a good time, and don't ever be afraid to
tell him no. - J.S. Park
Sunday, February 14, 2016
Philippians: For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain
This book
may have become my favorite book in the Bible. For some reason, reading it
brought a sense of freshness, something different from Paul’s other epistles. I
just like how Paul befriended a bunch of retired Roman soldiers and preached
the Gospel to them, which led to them being some of his greatest supporters
down the road.
3 I
thank my God every time I remember you. 4 In all my prayers for all of you, I
always pray with joy 5 because of your partnership in the gospel from the first
day until now, 6 being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you
will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
7 It
is right for me to feel this way about all of you, since I have you in my heart
and, whether I am in chains or defending and confirming the gospel, all of you
share in God’s grace with me. 8 God can testify how I long for all of you with
the affection of Christ Jesus.
9 And
this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and
depth of insight, 10 so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be
pure and blameless for the day of Christ, 11 filled with the fruit of
righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ—to the glory and praise of God.
Most of
Paul's letters usually starts out like this: "hi guys, its Paul again,
I've never stopped praying lots for ya'll, and WHAT IN
HEAVEN'S NAME IS ALL THIS CRAP I HEAR THAT YOU GUYS ARE DOING!?!?" But
that isn't the case with these ex-soldiers turned Christians, as Paul keeps gushing them praise that he fears has been
lacking. Paul even singles them out as the only church to help him in the early
days.
If
someone else thinks they have reasons to put confidence in the flesh, I have
more: 5 circumcised
on the eighth day, of the people of Israel, of the tribe of Benjamin, a Hebrew
of Hebrews; in regard to the law, a Pharisee; 6 as
for zeal, persecuting the church; as for righteousness based on the law,
faultless.
7 But whatever were gains to me I now consider loss for the
sake of Christ. 8 What
is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of
knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider
them garbage, that I may gain Christ 9 and
be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law,
but that which is through faith in Christ—the righteousness that comes from God
on the basis of faith. 10 I
want to know Christ—yes, to know the power of his resurrection and
participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, 11 and so, somehow,
attaining to the resurrection from the dead.
"Hey look at me. I was the hotshot politician. I was the he who made it in the world. I had influence. I had power. I was even considered righteous, uncorrupt and loved by the people, while being moral and upright and at the same time slaughtering heretics," yet it was all "filthy rags" in the end. Saul (old Paul) kind of reminds me of Percy from Harry Potter mixed with Nale from Words of Radiance. Paul’s tone of honesty in this letter again emphasizes the freshness, how Paul uses himself as an example of how everything from God and of God, and not from man. This is a bit different from other places where Paul purposefully self-deprecates (1 Timothy) for the purpose of teaching, or chastens himself as someone with tons of spiritual authority (1 Corinthians) for the purpose of rebuking. Here Paul writes this to relate himself to us as someone who had chased the world, and found God instead (or God found him).
10 I rejoiced greatly in the Lord that at last you renewed your concern for me. Indeed, you were concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. 11 I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength.
14 Yet it was good of you to share in my troubles. 15 Moreover, as you Philippians know, in the early days of your acquaintance with the gospel, when I set out from Macedonia, not one church shared with me in the matter of giving and receiving, except you only; 16 for even when I was in Thessalonica, you sent me aid more than once when I was in need. 17 Not that I desire your gifts; what I desire is that more be credited to your account. 18 I have received full payment and have more than enough. I am amply supplied, now that I have received from Epaphroditus the gifts you sent. They are a fragrant offering, an acceptable sacrifice, pleasing to God. 19 And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.
There is
an element of missions in this book that no one preaches or talks about (except maybe Mark Gungor): the act of giving and receiving. The
church only sent one guy, and Paul didn't criticize the Church for not sending
more men. Instead he basically gushed over the gifts these retired Roman
geezers have sent him, providing all he needs. Where are these kinds of message
in today's overseas missions movements? Yes churches don't fall into
complacency and worldliness, storing up wealth for ourselves, but don't try to
guilt trip people into doing overseas missions. As Paul says, let the Church of
Philippi do missions in that city. We ought to encourage this level of radical
giving and local serving in the church.
15 All of us, then, who are mature should take such a view of
things. And if on some point you think differently, that too God will make
clear to you. 16 Only
let us live up to what we have already attained.
17 Join together in following my example, brothers and
sisters, and just as you have us as a model, keep your eyes on those who live
as we do. 18 For,
as I have often told you before and now tell you again even with tears, many
live as enemies of the cross of Christ. 19 Their
destiny is destruction, their god is their stomach, and their glory is in their
shame. Their mind is set on earthly things. 20 But
our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the
Lord Jesus Christ, 21 who,
by the power that enables him to bring everything under his control, will
transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body.
8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.
There is a huge focus of looking to one another (and more mature Christians) as boosters and encouragement in the faith. By following a model, we are less likely to fall into traps and false doctrine. Satan is real guys, and he's a sly tricky bastard.
12 Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13 Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
I love Paul's honesty with sharing his own spiritual walk with his brothers and sister in Philippi. He admits that he hasn't reached a level of faith where he is satisfied, he hasn't reached his goal yet. One can even infer that he never got there, as he died before reaching Spain from Rome. This reminds me of that old slave prayer everyone has been sharing on tumblr recently. Paul gives Christians at all stages in their walk with Christ, to live up to the amount of faith we have already have. Not the amount we wish we had, not the amount someone else has, and not the amount people tell us we should have. If you are a level 1 Christian, then live up to that station. If you are a level 99 Christian, then do the same to the extent of faith given to you by God. But don't try to force it by your own strength, because we know that strength is nothing at all.
“I am
not what I ought to be, I am not what I want to be, I am not what I hope to be
in another world; but still I am not what I once used to be, and by the grace
of God I am what I am” - John Newton
Saturday, February 13, 2016
Luke 7
36 When one of the Pharisees invited Jesus to have dinner with him, he went to the Pharisee’s house and reclined at the table. 37 A woman in that town who lived a sinful life learned that Jesus was eating at the Pharisee’s house, so she came there with an alabaster jar of perfume. 38 As she stood behind him at his feet weeping, she began to wet his feet with her tears. Then she wiped them with her hair, kissed them and poured perfume on them.
39 When the Pharisee who had invited him saw this, he said to himself, “If this man were a prophet, he would know who is touching him and what kind of woman she is—that she is a sinner.”
40 Jesus answered him, “Simon, I have something to tell you.”
“Tell me, teacher,” he said.
41 “Two people owed money to a certain moneylender. One owed him five hundred denarii,[c] and the other fifty. 42 Neither of them had the money to pay him back, so he forgave the debts of both. Now which of them will love him more?”
43 Simon replied, “I suppose the one who had the bigger debt forgiven.”
“You have judged correctly,” Jesus said.
44 Then he turned toward the woman and said to Simon, “Do you see this woman? I came into your house. You did not give me any water for my feet, but she wet my feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. 45 You did not give me a kiss, but this woman, from the time I entered, has not stopped kissing my feet. 46 You did not put oil on my head, but she has poured perfume on my feet. 47 Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven—as her great love has shown. But whoever has been forgiven little loves little.”
48 Then Jesus said to her, “Your sins are forgiven.”
49 The other guests began to say among themselves, “Who is this who even forgives sins?”
50 Jesus said to the woman, “Your faith has saved you; go in peace.”
This was the passage we did for international bible study last Friday, the 2nd entry from the iGIG guide (how many years has it been since I made that post? 7 years...God makes me keep my promises). It was one of those (increasing) moments where the simple bible study hits me harder than some dense theological study of Romans or Galatians. Here is a story that I have never heard any pastor preach on, and yet shows a woman who knew the Gospel so much. No other character of the Bible knew the Gospel this well, how sinful she is and how loved she is by Jesus. When I read this passage, I totally felt like Simon, who felt he has been forgiven little and thus loves Jesus little. If I, Daniel Lee, truly TRULY knew how deeply wicked I am and how much I needed to be forgiven, then now that I know I have a Grace and a Love that has wiped out all of my debts, how can I possibly not fall on my knees daily and wash my Lord's feet with my tears? Alas, that is where I realize how little of the message of the Gospel has seeped into my life, and how little I know of the Love that is as vast as the ocean. Oh there is still so much room for me to grow! I want to know you more!
Now Pastor Nate wants me to get coffee with the international seekers. Oh boy, I am going to pull out my super detailed (not really for) Children's Illustrated Bible and my NT Lego Bible. No fancy tricks, just prayer and the Gospel. That is really all they need.
Ugh we all have to own up to how little live out the Gospel in our daily lives. Preach the Gospel to yourself daily.
36 When one of the Pharisees invited Jesus to have dinner with him, he went to the Pharisee’s house and reclined at the table. 37 A woman in that town who lived a sinful life learned that Jesus was eating at the Pharisee’s house, so she came there with an alabaster jar of perfume. 38 As she stood behind him at his feet weeping, she began to wet his feet with her tears. Then she wiped them with her hair, kissed them and poured perfume on them.
39 When the Pharisee who had invited him saw this, he said to himself, “If this man were a prophet, he would know who is touching him and what kind of woman she is—that she is a sinner.”
40 Jesus answered him, “Simon, I have something to tell you.”
“Tell me, teacher,” he said.
41 “Two people owed money to a certain moneylender. One owed him five hundred denarii,[c] and the other fifty. 42 Neither of them had the money to pay him back, so he forgave the debts of both. Now which of them will love him more?”
43 Simon replied, “I suppose the one who had the bigger debt forgiven.”
“You have judged correctly,” Jesus said.
44 Then he turned toward the woman and said to Simon, “Do you see this woman? I came into your house. You did not give me any water for my feet, but she wet my feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. 45 You did not give me a kiss, but this woman, from the time I entered, has not stopped kissing my feet. 46 You did not put oil on my head, but she has poured perfume on my feet. 47 Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven—as her great love has shown. But whoever has been forgiven little loves little.”
48 Then Jesus said to her, “Your sins are forgiven.”
49 The other guests began to say among themselves, “Who is this who even forgives sins?”
50 Jesus said to the woman, “Your faith has saved you; go in peace.”
This was the passage we did for international bible study last Friday, the 2nd entry from the iGIG guide (how many years has it been since I made that post? 7 years...God makes me keep my promises). It was one of those (increasing) moments where the simple bible study hits me harder than some dense theological study of Romans or Galatians. Here is a story that I have never heard any pastor preach on, and yet shows a woman who knew the Gospel so much. No other character of the Bible knew the Gospel this well, how sinful she is and how loved she is by Jesus. When I read this passage, I totally felt like Simon, who felt he has been forgiven little and thus loves Jesus little. If I, Daniel Lee, truly TRULY knew how deeply wicked I am and how much I needed to be forgiven, then now that I know I have a Grace and a Love that has wiped out all of my debts, how can I possibly not fall on my knees daily and wash my Lord's feet with my tears? Alas, that is where I realize how little of the message of the Gospel has seeped into my life, and how little I know of the Love that is as vast as the ocean. Oh there is still so much room for me to grow! I want to know you more!
Now Pastor Nate wants me to get coffee with the international seekers. Oh boy, I am going to pull out my super detailed (not really for) Children's Illustrated Bible and my NT Lego Bible. No fancy tricks, just prayer and the Gospel. That is really all they need.
Ugh we all have to own up to how little live out the Gospel in our daily lives. Preach the Gospel to yourself daily.
Friday, February 5, 2016
We Christians always like to say that the origins of the field of science came out of theism or Christianity. I hear that from respected people like Dr. Ian Hutchinson, Dr. Stephen Um, and recently Dr. John Lennox. But I really wonder, if these scientists of old (such as Faraday, Galileo, Darwin) given the evidence for a god and for a world without a god, would they still be Christian? Either way they are dead, so we will never know the answer. But I can't help but wonder...
Tuesday, February 2, 2016
Superbowl is coming up again, and just remembering last year's event, I wish I was still surrounded by guys who can decide that fellowship with one another is more important than a sport (despite some of them actually rooting for teams).
Colossians 3:2 Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things
Colossians 3:2 Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things
Wednesday, January 27, 2016
Sunday, January 17, 2016
A conversation with Jesus
Man: “Jesus, I just want to thank you so much for answering my prayers! Thank you so much for the awesome job you lined up for me! Thank you for the stable income so I can buy the sports car I’ve always wanted! Thank you so much for giving me such a beautiful wife last year! You’ve been showering me with so many blessings!”
Jesus: “Friend, I don’t know how to say this, but I am not
in those things and I did not answer your prayers. Didn’t I tell you? I am with
those of humble means, I am with the poor and needy, I am with those who are
crying, and I am with those who suffer for my name’s sake. It will be those who
are truly blessed. Seek me and you shall find me. If you remain in me, then I
will remain in you, but if you seek these worldly things, then you are not
with me, and I will have to cut off our relationship and admit I never knew you.
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Jesus: “Friend [1], I don’t know how to say this, but I am
not in those things and I did not answer your prayers [2]. Didn’t I tell you? I
am with those of humble means [3], I am with the poor and needy [4], I am with
those who are crying [5], and I am with those who suffer for my name’s sake [6].
It will be these who are truly blessed [7]. Seek me and you shall find me [8].
If you remain in me, then I will remain in you [9], but if you seek these
worldly things [10], then you are not with me [11], and I will have to cut off
our relationship [12] and admit I don’t know you [13].
[1] John 15:15 I no longer call you servants, because a
servant does not know his master's business. Instead, I have called you
friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you.
[2] Luke 9:25 What good is it for someone to gain the whole
world, and yet lose or forfeit their very self?
[3] James 9:11 But the brother of humble circumstances is to glory in
his high position; and the rich man is to glory in his humiliation,
because like flowering grass he will pass away. For the sun rises with a
scorching wind and withers the grass; and its flower falls off and the beauty
of its appearance is destroyed; so too the rich man in the midst of his
pursuits will fade away.
[4] Matthew 25:40 "The King will reply, 'Truly I tell
you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of
mine, you did for me.'
[5] Psalm 34:18 The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and
saves the crushed in spirit.
[6] 1 Peter 3:14 But even if you should suffer for what is
right, you are blessed. "Do not fear their threats; do not be
frightened."
1 Peter 4:14 If you are insulted for the name of Christ, you
are blessed, because the Spirit of glory and of God rests upon you.
1 Peter 5:10 And after you have suffered a little while, the
God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will
himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.
2 Corinthians 4:8-10 We are afflicted in every way, but not
crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken;
struck down, but not destroyed; always carrying in the body the death of Jesus,
so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our bodies
[7] Matthew 5:3-11 “Blessed are the poor
in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. “Blessed are those who mourn,
for they shall be comforted. “Blessed are the gentle, for they shall inherit the
earth. “Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they
shall be satisfied. “Blessed are the merciful, for they shall receive mercy. “Blessed
are the pure in heart, for they shall see God. “Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they shall be called sons of God. “Blessed are those who have been persecuted
for the sake of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. “Blessed
are you when people insult you and persecute you, and falsely say all
kinds of evil against you because of Me. “Rejoice and be glad, for your reward
in heaven is great; for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were
before you.
[8] Matthew 7:7 “Ask,
and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be
opened to you.
[9] John 15:4 Remain in me, as I also remain
in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither
can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.
John 14:23 Jesus replied, "Anyone who loves me will obey my teaching. My Father will love them, and we will come to them and make our home with them.
[10] Colossians 3:2 Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth
John 14:23 Jesus replied, "Anyone who loves me will obey my teaching. My Father will love them, and we will come to them and make our home with them.
[10] Colossians 3:2 Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth
1 John 2:15-17 Do not love the world
or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father
is not in him. For all that is in the world—the desires of the flesh and the
desires of the eyes and pride in possessions—is not from the Father but is from
the world. And the world is passing away along with its desires, but whoever
does the will of God abides forever.
[11] Luke 16: 13 No servant can serve
two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be
devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and money.”
[12] John 15:6 If you do not remain in me,
you are like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked
up, thrown into the fire and burned.
[13] Matthew 7:23 Then I will tell them
plainly, ‘I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!
Monday, January 11, 2016
Urbana 2015: Cost, Suffering, and Risk
Well reading this, I am volunteering in 2015, but I am not
doing it with my significant other. Poop. That doesn’t mean I’m volunteering
alone. I got to do a shift with Jeff and many other brothers and sisters of all
ages at the airport, and it was so much fun receiving the confused and scared
college students just entering the super rainy St. Louis airport.
Already living in Jeff’s leaky house, I was encouraged by
brothers who knew scripture, who memorized scripture, and who encouraged and
challenged each other with scripture. It puts me into perspective how little I
know about the Bible, and there is still much more the Holy Spirit can show me
in God’s Word. Given I still think the NIV is okay while they were all NASB and
ESV, I think at the end of the day it is still the Holy Spirit who brings the
Story of God to life in our small and humble lives.
One of the things I’m wrestling is the feeling of no knowing
what I should be doing, and being left behind. Urbana 2009 was a time of fun
and fellowship, going with my undergraduate fellowship en mass and just taking
in the expanse of the missions conference of thousands of Christians from all
of the world in a kind of consumeristic fashion. Urbana 2012 was more for
myself, finding purpose as a young adult out of college, as well as reconciling
with my past regrets, bitterness, and tension. Now in Urbana 2015, I don’t have
much expectations and really just here to serve brothers and sisters from
Pittsburgh, Kansas City, and Chicago who are attending for the first or second
time. I want to keep this experience one of selflessness, not focused on myself
(especially in the romantic area) but on building on the hope and excitement I
see in all the newcomers. Like Sam said, I am here, though I can be critical of
Intervarsity and Urbana, to see that hope, to see God work in the new college
generation and show them His glory, His kingdom, and His plan for this world. I
can only pray that we understand how easily we become worldly, and the cost to
follow Jesus. And how it is SO worth it to follow!
The first night of group huddling, I got hear Jeff’s experience at The
Crossing, Pastor Lester’s new church. He shared the disappointment he feels
where no one there shares the same level of energy and excitement to proclaim
the Gospel and take action. He shares how all the young adults have fallen into
complacency and are “mellow” about their faith. I see the same thing at Beloved
in Chicago, how everything is explained away with “this is just how young adult
life is, meeting up with someone once a week every week is already super
extraordinary.” That may be true, but that also means young adult Christians
are just living a life that is culturally dictated, instead of Biblically ordained.
Just because young adults are supposed to go to work and be tired, and the
evenings are for resting and entertainment and exercise, does it have to be
that way? Is that the church, body, and fellowship that Jesus envisioned?
Aren’t we supposed to meet daily, sharpen one another, and put others above
ourselves? The thing is, I see myself slowly falling into complacency too. When
I meet with brothers, I don’t go deep. Instead I focus on food, on anime, or
simplistic stuff. Yes there have been moments of great Gospel preaching and of
discipline, but those have been sparse. I actually wonder how much of my faith
is real, and how much is fake that I pretend is real. I know leaving CMU and
ACF, God has used the time in Chicago to reveal my weaknesses and continual
sins that were suppressed in a strong spiritual environment (yes I call ACF a
strong environment despite other people’s opinions because you haven’t seen how
bad other environments can be). Can I start a men’s group? Can I plant a campus
ministry at UIC? Can I serve international students? Can I engage the
economical and racial tensions in Chicago? So many possible callings, yet so
little time as a PhD student. That just sounds like an excuse.
Sam said that our greatest persecution in America will be from within American
“churches” where brothers and sisters who are complacent. I wonder if I will
face such opposition in Chicago, and whether I will be able to face it instead
of just falling back and giving up.
When the message at Urbana for #blacklivesmatter came up on
the stream after Francis Chan's message, my first thought was “this is interesting, they
even changed into the shirts.” I found it informative and didn’t think too much
about it until everyone else came back, and it turns out this message was one
of the most hotly debated ones at the conference, with questions about whether
it was appropriate or out of place, or even misguided message for a conference
focused on missions. For me, I’m all for supporting the messages of friendship,
racial reconciliation, and equal treatment of people of color that are embodied
within the #blacklivesmatter movement. In this I say amen to Michelle Higgins
for bring this point home. I know I have been personally ignorant about this
until I moved to Chicago, where the racial tensions over the death of Laquan
McDonald shot to a high, and since then I have done my best to try to engage
this topic in the most Biblical and Jesus-centered way possible. Yes I don’t
think innocent teenagers should be shot just because of their skin color. It
grieves me that a beautiful 12-year old was killed, as the non-indictment has
been shaking the social spheres today. But we have to look at this from a
Gospel perspective. We have to understand that if we were in the same shoes as
the shooters, we would have done the same thing. The Gospel tells us that we
would have sinned in the exact same manner as Adam and Eve in the Garden of
Eden, then the Gospel tells us we would have shot in the same manner due to our
upbringing, racial biases, and inherent nerves in that situation. We have to
remember that whatever sins and atrocities these police officers and those who
embody racist mindsets are nothing compared to the atrocities we ourselves have
committed against the Cross. When we put this into perspective, then we can
start to show Grace and God’s love in this whole mess. I have wrestled the last
month or two on how to jump into this topic. Where do we start? It is true that
we now have a cultural bias to see black males as dangerous. I feel it when I
walk home at night from UIC. I see it every other day in the email alerts about
crimes committed in the area. We know that statistically majority of crimes are
committed by black adult men. This is a fact that is commonly ignored by the #blacklivesmatter
movement. I know that majority of these men grew up being taught that they were
dangerous, and thus became dangerous. I know there was a lack of proper
teaching in their lives, through the lack of economic resources, imposed social
norms, and lack of father figures in their lives. It is truly sad and unfair.
One then can look at the side of the police officers, where they legally and
rightly arrest dangerous criminals who majority are black males, and due to
this habituation and repetition become insensitive, tense, and suspicious when
confronted with black males on the street. Yes there are moments of outrageous
acts of violence and murder done by specific policemen, but on a broader
picture the yearly interactions can affect the perception to racial bias. This is
unfair too. I don’t really know where and when to jump in, especially as an
Asian-American.
As a Christian though, we have to look deeper into the whole picture.
For thousands of years racial bias has existed. The Chinese have had great
civil wars. The World Wars also had elements of racial bias. Even Biblical
times we had tensions between Samaritans and Jews, Romans and Jews, Israelites
and Egyptians, Israelites and Ishmaelites, and Israelites and Canaanites. In
the last case, God even ordered the Canaanite’s destruction due to the sin they
inherited from their forefather Canaan and Ham. We see that the root of one man
deciding another man is beneath him is due to sin, and we cannot fight sin by
our own means. That is something I see that is lacking in the Christian
community, especially in Intervarsity where the vast majority of staff are part
of the #blacklivesmatter movement (as one infer from their social media posts
with sole focus on this single issue among the many issues presented at Urbana).
Where does eternity play into this movement? Where does it fit into our call as
Christians to do the Great Commission? Where does it fit into Jesus’s promises
that we will suffer and endure fiery trials because of our faith? Yes, part of
Jesus’s teaching is to love our neighbors, all our neighbors including those of
color and of the Muslim faith. But what is the greatest love we can possibly
give them? God is Love, and thus to give them the greatest love is to give them
Jesus Himself! Now where is that in the movement, or in social justice
movements in general? If Christians pursue these movements without the Gospel,
what are we doing that is different from non-believers? And yes, that
difference matters big time for the Kingdom of God. We have a tendency to
follow people, and that is why we need a savior to follow and focus our
efforts. We need to not forget our purpose here on this earth is to
share the Gospel and proclaim God’s glory to all nations and all people, and no
social justice movement should ever take precedence over this. Without a doubt,
my brothers of color are hindered in their callings because of social
injustices, and so I will stand with them to overcome these obstacles. But to
focus on the obstacles instead of the object of our faith just idolatry,
focusing on the now and trying to make lives comfortable instead of pursuing eternity.
I like Francis Chan’s answer when someone asked his stance on #blacklivesmatter,
and it was sad that many in the audience grumbled and weren’t satisfied with
it. We have to emulate the Christians who spearheaded ending slavery in Europe and in the US, and the Christians who brought their faith into the Civil Rights movement. They didn't make social justice their faith, but because of their love of Jesus, they were compelled to love their neighbors and to bring an end to the injustice imposed upon them. We also cannot support evils that are present in various amounts in social justice movements, such as using violence against violence. As Christians, we are to fight in a way that reveals the power of the Holy
Spirit as the only power to bring peace. If not, then we have failed and the movement
is worthless.
Update: I really want to support #blm, and love my brothers
and sister of color, but when a single message is overemphasized out of 16 beautiful
and equally important messages to the point that it is the only one that is
shared on fb and cheered for during sessions, at a missions conference no less,
then maybe we have our priorities wrong. Maybe we even forgot about Jesus, and
started selfishly focusing on how to make our worldly lives on earth better or
for others better by our own power. When did the Gospel equal social justice? Where is that in
the Bible? Gospel is always accompanied by suffering, and that actually means
world-induced social injustice against you as a Christian and as a human being,
to different extents for different backgrounds and culture and it just means
greater glory for you in eternity. Social justice may be a small part of the
picture of God’s story, but it isn’t the entire story! David Platt said it
best, if we disregard Jesus, then any movement or social justice endeavor is
completely worthless, and I feel that this is occurring (https://vimeo.com/150364821). Remember, the
Gospel is about Love, and it is also about forgiving our trespassers. Vengeance
solely belongs to the Lord. So…does your heart belong to Jesus, or just a
movement?
"Missions
was never intended to be your life, Christ was intended to be your life.
Missions is an overflow of a life and heart for Christ." – David Platt
Now that the conference is over, there is so much I still need to
process. In terms of knowledge, for the most part, the messages have been
reminders of things I already know. Missions. Gospel. Preach. Serve. Still, one
of the overarching messages I felt the strongest was the focus of cost,
suffering, and risk in a Christian’s life. Actually, Francis Chan’s message at
Onething (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j31ncnro-Y4)
helped wrap everything together that I heard and saw at Urbana. There is no
escaping suffering, every single book of the New Testament brings it up. If you
follow Jesus, you will suffer. Not only will you suffer, but you ought to
rejoice when you suffer for the Lord. Over and over again is this message
repeated in the Bible, and I see it in the lives of the missionaries sharing
their testimonies at Urbana. Though I was not present at probably the most
powerful moment of Urbana, the prayer night with the six pillars, I can imagine
how aware the attendees were of the persecution of the saints in all those countries,
and how great the need for the Gospel to be shared in those nations.
For me, the one message that convicted me the most was the
secret speaker Wednesday night, under the pseudonym Gassan. His message on
reaching out to the international students from Islamic countries really hit
me, especially when I know UIC is full of Muslim and Indian graduate students. How
can I not share when they are coming to me, instead of me having to go to
hostile countries, and coming to an educational environment that promotes
open-mindedness such as sharing each other’s religion? Still, there is fear. Fear
that they would reject me or laugh at me as a researcher. Even more fear that
they would be genuinely interested in the Gospel, which means I would be
wasting time that I could have used for myself. My personal time, my research
time, my study time, my fun time. My time is precious to me, and I believe part
of suffering for the Kingdom is to sacrifice my time for the sake of these students.
But I don’t wanna! My God take my fear away from me.
Update: We all are feeling it. It has been several weeks since the conference ended, and the energy from the conference is slipping away. We are falling back into the routine and being tempted to follow the world again. To fight against that, one of the best ways it to keep sharing your experience. Share it with your parents. Share it with your family. Share it with your small group. Share it with your church. Share it with your co-worker. Share it with someone, because when you keep on sharing, you will keep remembering the messages and convictions you experienced. Also sharing it with multiple people allows them to keep you accountable to your goals and promises, even if they are non-believers. Keep the conversation going to keep a heart for missions flowing.
Urbana 2015 notes
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