Love language

I took the test. It said I liked quality time.

But I've really never received physical touch or gifts much, especially from girls. When a brother touches me in a friendly manner, such as a hug or a grip on the shoulder, it makes me feel like I belong. When a girl touches me, its like a lightning bolt through my body (like Tim Keller puts it), even if its just as friends.

The few gifts I have, I've noticed i cherish deeply and they always invoke memories of people. People far away. People long gone from my life. People who will always have a spot in my heart. I remember them all.

Though acts of service is my strongest love language, and I do it so often, I feel like I would cheapen others' acts of service toward me. This has happened before and I've learned to try to appreciate others' acts and not compare them to mine quantitatively. But I also noticed that of all the love languages, I can identify and notice this one first in my sisters. Maybe I am attracted to this love language, more than I thought I  did. At least it almost seems like this is a quality I want in a future wife. Someone who gives to the fellowship and cares deeply for her friends and family.

Words. Sometimes I feel like actions speak louder than words. Unfortunately the only words I seem to remember are the negative ones spoken to me in anger or spite. Maybe this is the one gift I'm not attracted to or need. Will need to explore this.

At the very least, I feel like I would desire all the gifts if not just 4 in my marriage. There are ones I'm so low on that they will have a huge impact. And there are ones I'm naturally inclined to (quality time). And there are ones that mirror my heart (or God's servant heart) that I notice first.